You Better Cry

You better cry
cry the crocodile tears of remorse
because all eyes will be watching you
& Lord knows, you never gave 2 shits
about her as you flew
tell your stories how you helped her
oh, such the good soul
fake
opaque
wither in your regret
nightmares never forget

white funeral Lilies dripping crimson
blood-stained from the abuse
hide it all away
pretend it does not exist
grab your faithful cross
exorcist
confess all
in complete
complacent silence
letting it all continue
in hell-bent defiance

just don't ask my opinion of you
2 sisters so willingly turned away
so many years
until she lay in a coma
slow was her fading day

oh, but you gave her a ham on Christmas
so I suppose that fixes everything
her eyelids never fluttered open to see it
steps creeping for the exit
bit
by
bit

Tuesday Mourning

Tuesday is mourning
for the little sister
now gone
never given any credit
Truth be told
I admired all her kooky ways
how she laughed
while traveling through
her dysfunctional family's maze

her body now ash
crematorium furnace
burning all the pages of her story

I'll sit back and watch the nodding
the prodding
for deeper sympathy
a sarcastic smirk
before the ruthless turn their back

Long, Strange Sleep

I awoke with a flash
& then fell asleep again
all the mess crashing in
closing my eyes to unsee
torn edges I burned so easily
in a cloud of wrath
I wrecked everything around me

6 year sleep
high price
steep

now that I am awake
I look around me in dismay
& a gritting teeth determination
to clean my own mess
no hesitation

6 year sleep
high price
steep