To The Ones Still In It..Gathering Courage To Leave

This is how it's going to happen.  He will do or say the one thing that will ignite your soul.  It will come unexpectedly even though you've been expecting it all along.  All your well-laid out plans will come as an insignificance.  In fact, you'll forget out the plan and just focus on getting out.  You'll go to that friend's house and swallow your pride as you ask for help.  They'll be glad to offer you temporary solace so don't worry about being their burden.  Remember.  You were isolated from them and now is their one big chance to help you in the greatest way they can.  Let them.  Or you'll go to a family member's house.  Go.  Don't think about the details just yet.  Getting out is important.  What if you don't have that friend or family member?  Then take yourself to that women's shelter.  You're smart and very resourceful.  I'm giving you a hint, here.  Do your damn homework.  Find a list of women's shelters if you think you might need one.  I've been to one.  Solely for counseling purposes.  The beauty of it is that you will be surrounded by women in your similar situation.  Free counseling.  A warm bed.  Resources to help you find a job and re-establish your finances.  They will give you clothing if you have to escape with just the clothes on your back.  Free food.  This is no time to be proud.  Pride will kill you.  And then pray.  Pray like you've never done before.  Cry.  Like you've never cried before.  Talk.  You have a voice and your soul is hurting.  The pain needs to be released.  Write a letter detailing all the hurt and then burn it.  No.  You do not need him.  No.  You are not going back.  Yes.  You are strong, beautiful, and intelligent.  You deserve a life free of pain caused by a heartless person who only likes to watch you suffer.  Your life depends on this one, great, important decision.  Go.  Leave.  And don't ever look back.
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