Nauseating Pause

It's the
Nauseating pause
As the just
Look for
Just cause
The court room
Burned in my mind
Cold marble
So unkind
In the echoing hall
I search for silence
Gathering within
Gathering it all
Dream of a warm beach
Anything to take my mind
To a better place
Mastering my facial expressions
For my abuser
I must constantly face
Hiding my emotions
Behind
The imperfect storm
Hearing the judge speak
Of the upgrade he might grant
His voice full of
Forewarn
It's then I want to run
Before I become
Completely undone.